school's in (not for me)

Tuesday, August 07, 2007


school season is upon us again. you know that from the groups of teenagers traipsing around the island in old tshirts and short shorts which by right should never be seen outside home. but this time its different. there's something different in the air about going to university. something like growing from kids to becoming adults. moving to a hostel, having to start living in a spartan room to call your own, its pretty amusing actually. cos its not much different from enlisting in army. you got your own bunk, cupboard and all your assorted barang to stash around. there ain't no inspections, standbys and what not in uni, but having to meet and bond with new people by virtue of you all being forced to stay together is in the same vein as bonding with your army buddies.

it'll be my turn to partake in all this reverie in 2 years, not sure what to expect of it. secondary school orientation was a blast, what was started in that first week has held strong even until now, probably the strongest bonds i'll ever make in my life. jc was a different story. i was in a place i didn't wanna be, and when you hold such a thought in yourself, its hard to let loose and have fun. words thoughts and actions don't flow as easily when you're reluctantly forced to have fun. still had a blast in jc but orientation didn't really do much good. and then there was army. oh man those were the days. from having to endure two weeks of isolation to the last few joyous carefree weeks on that island, it was good too. there was no pretence at making us have fun, just cold hard adaptation to a new life. somehow i work best when thrown into the deep end like this. just like how during jc orientation i wish we could just skip the pretences and drop right into a normal routine. only then would i flourish. i'm like a totally fun person but it doesn't come through when forced to put a face and smile. i just don't work that way and i suspect most people feel the same.

but then things might change in 2 years. i know i've changed tremendously in the past 2 years - heck i've changed almost beyond recognition in the past two weeks alone haha. not everyone can be super enthu and on about everything though(if not i'd be in ocs now haha) , i forsee myself hanging around with fellow relax-ers, having fun without being in the thick of action. i ain't the life of any party but I do my best to make sure its not dead.

67wks to go-







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